Wednesday
6:32 pm
5 months seemed like an eternity, yet a lot of things have occurred. It was about time to pick up where I left behind. It was one of those "i know I gotta do these things but too lazy to ever do anything about it" kind of deals. As mentioned before, a lot of things have happened, and not just small things. Significant things like the progression of life that all young men and women experience. Things like inevitable confrontations with the people whom we used to love and trust. The joys of reunion, the sorrows of parting ways. The struggles of survival and finding ones own sense of belonging. Finding emotional and spiritual connections in a world alien to one's self. The struggle of having to manage yourself and the environment in your everyday world.
I guess I should rather start where I left behind. Life basically started to go downhill from October. My laptop died, school in Denmark didn't seem that exciting and became too routined. Struggling to find a place to live, rediculous government financial aid, whining complaints from my sister and nagging phone calls from mother. All that plus the hard efforts to keep myself in a somewhat good physical condition (Despite me buying a pack of cigs a couple of times back then and the fear of loosing weight due to cutting down on food consumption based on my sister's paranoia of dwindling cash savings). My sister and I were somehow relieved by the fact that we were soon heading back to Toronto, especially for my sister. We both thought that the plan for her was to stay in Copenhagen for 6 months to get away from her boyfriend and then she'd be staying in Toronto indefinitely afterwards. Turns out, we wouldn't not only move to Ottawa, away from very close church family and friends, but my sister would still have to go back to Copenhagen. It was suddenly decided so without any of our consultation. I wouldn't have cared if it were only me but anything negative towards my sister has an impact on me as well. It might have taken a few weeks before everything seemed to calm down and feel like life on its normal paces.
I looked really forward for December. Hell, my sister probably looked forward to it more than I ever did. Had been so stressed at school that I have missed a few homework, a couple of lessons on very hard topics, especially physics, and Christmas vacation was nearing and I really could have used a break. Besides, my laptop had died for months now and all it was, was dead weight in our bags and didn't provide me a speck of entertainment. My sister had better reasons to look forward to the 18th. For one thing, her boyfriend had come over in a surprise visit. Guess he couldn't take being away from her either. Had a great time though when he came. Anyways, they (my sister and her boyfriend) had decided that they would come clean to our mom about their relationship although she did kinda know. They just wanted to be open and tell of their feelings and intentions on hopes of being approved, accepted, and receiving our parents' blessing, especially from our enraged mother. My sister was determined to find words to say in the upcoming "battle" against our mother. As temperatures cooled down, tensions would heat up during the coming months between my mother and the both of us.
To be continued....
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